One Step Closer

We had our final meeting with our social worker last night. She had me pretty freaked out the night before we met, she couldn't find one of the reference letters and thought she was going to have to send it out to have it completed again. I was about beside myself all night long thinking about that possibility. Fortunately the next morning I received an email from her letting me know that she had found it. She called me once the morning of our meeting to ask me a question then called again a couple of hours before we met to continue asking me questions. She was typing our homestudy as we were on the phone. Unfortunately she did not complete it in time to bring to dinner for us to approve so I am once again waiting for her to finish it. Once we receive the rough draft we have to look it over and if there are any discrepancies we have to let her know (please pray that everything is complete and correct when she sends it to us) Once we have reviewed it and approved it she will send the final copy to the USCIS and to our adoption agency. I am really hoping that she can get our rough draft done this week. If she does, there is still a possibility we could be DTC in May!
This is such a roller coaster ride. Half the time I feel like I am at the top of the roller coaster hill, looking down at everything feeling absolutely on top of the world. The other half is spent in sheer terror-you know the kind-where you are rushing down a coaster hill, through a loop, entering darkness and feeling like you are going to throw up. That is my life right now. I need some more time on top of the coaster hills.